OMG!!!!!

well..i had a swell day today..haha..but the starting was totally awful..

i woke up with a fever and an upset tummy..

k nvm i went out with my mum and my sisters anyway..

so we went to j8 at first..then head for the bank.i thot my mum was just drawing some cash for my sisters..but then she handed me my account book..

i was like "whats this for?"

she said "we gona make an atm card for you."

i smiled so widely man!!! hahahaha

then we queued up and applied and all..vuala!!i have a atm card with me!!woohoo

hahaha..then we went to coffee bean to have some breakfast..hah!(we barely go there)..

and after that we went to popular to buy for my two younger sisters their books..

and after that to the salon!!hee..i had the moisturising treatment..ehhhehehe..

and after that we headed home thinking that it was the end of the day..

at home, while having lunch my dad asked if we wanted to go to toapayoh..

we all said it was ok as they could also buy their shoes..

so we relaxed and took a nap..then at 3pm i asked if we were going..

my dad had a sudden pms i guess..he was all moody..but my mumu was like what the heck, just go with it..so me, my mum, n my two sisters headed for toapayoh..

we went shopping again..heheeh..than went home..

everyone was super tired..X/..aha

okok than we had dinner..then i slept awhile cause i had fever again..haha..

ok..thats the end..=] thankyou!!

thinking....

well..i should say that i really miss him..and im really..empty..haish..

its really boring to suddenly lose the person you really love the most..

i wish i can talk to him right now..

i wish we had never fought that day..

i wish he would have came for me that day..

i wish im not in this situation right now.. really..

haish..im being pressured..

by my dad, by my mum, by my promise to myself, by my promise to my bestfriend..by my promise to D..

noone would ever understand my situation..even if they said they understood..

it sucks..

ALOT!

haish..will i concentrate my course to graduate to poly?

will i find someone better in ite?

will i become astray from my path?

will i break my promises?

i hope i cant cope with it..i really do..

hmm..i guess i will be very busy with school soon..

my course, cca, projects..

i hope D changes..i hope he ask me back with a different attitude..but deep down in my gut..i know that he will still have the same old arrogant douchebag in him..i cry every night thinking about him..well..even if im with him or not..i just have a feeling that he is keeping something from me..something big..haish..i wont say i regret meeting him..and i wont say i regret breaking up with him.

.one thing that everyone around me say..that they are afraid that i will still be the same or worse..hmm..no one has faith in me..and i cant move on if i dont feel the faith..hmm.. hate this..

hey to all again..hmm..today i am very annoyed and very restless..im just so god damn stressed right now..i try so hard to be happy with my family..and having a boyfriend..is needed..fuck it why did i even say that..having a boyfriend is pointless..so unreasonable..so not understanding..so not loving..so not caring..so fucking annoying..haish..seriously i just wish i will be single all the way till i find the right guy..why i say that cause..every single fucking day is always my fault..argh!!!nevermind i just wanna hit something so hard till my hand bleed..seriously..hmm..not being ammature but seriously..