OMG!!!!!

well..i had a swell day today..haha..but the starting was totally awful..

i woke up with a fever and an upset tummy..

k nvm i went out with my mum and my sisters anyway..

so we went to j8 at first..then head for the bank.i thot my mum was just drawing some cash for my sisters..but then she handed me my account book..

i was like "whats this for?"

she said "we gona make an atm card for you."

i smiled so widely man!!! hahahaha

then we queued up and applied and all..vuala!!i have a atm card with me!!woohoo

hahaha..then we went to coffee bean to have some breakfast..hah!(we barely go there)..

and after that we went to popular to buy for my two younger sisters their books..

and after that to the salon!!hee..i had the moisturising treatment..ehhhehehe..

and after that we headed home thinking that it was the end of the day..

at home, while having lunch my dad asked if we wanted to go to toapayoh..

we all said it was ok as they could also buy their shoes..

so we relaxed and took a nap..then at 3pm i asked if we were going..

my dad had a sudden pms i guess..he was all moody..but my mumu was like what the heck, just go with it..so me, my mum, n my two sisters headed for toapayoh..

we went shopping again..heheeh..than went home..

everyone was super tired..X/..aha

okok than we had dinner..then i slept awhile cause i had fever again..haha..

ok..thats the end..=] thankyou!!

thinking....

well..i should say that i really miss him..and im really..empty..haish..

its really boring to suddenly lose the person you really love the most..

i wish i can talk to him right now..

i wish we had never fought that day..

i wish he would have came for me that day..

i wish im not in this situation right now.. really..

haish..im being pressured..

by my dad, by my mum, by my promise to myself, by my promise to my bestfriend..by my promise to D..

noone would ever understand my situation..even if they said they understood..

it sucks..

ALOT!

haish..will i concentrate my course to graduate to poly?

will i find someone better in ite?

will i become astray from my path?

will i break my promises?

i hope i cant cope with it..i really do..

hmm..i guess i will be very busy with school soon..

my course, cca, projects..

i hope D changes..i hope he ask me back with a different attitude..but deep down in my gut..i know that he will still have the same old arrogant douchebag in him..i cry every night thinking about him..well..even if im with him or not..i just have a feeling that he is keeping something from me..something big..haish..i wont say i regret meeting him..and i wont say i regret breaking up with him.

.one thing that everyone around me say..that they are afraid that i will still be the same or worse..hmm..no one has faith in me..and i cant move on if i dont feel the faith..hmm.. hate this..

hey to all again..hmm..today i am very annoyed and very restless..im just so god damn stressed right now..i try so hard to be happy with my family..and having a boyfriend..is needed..fuck it why did i even say that..having a boyfriend is pointless..so unreasonable..so not understanding..so not loving..so not caring..so fucking annoying..haish..seriously i just wish i will be single all the way till i find the right guy..why i say that cause..every single fucking day is always my fault..argh!!!nevermind i just wanna hit something so hard till my hand bleed..seriously..hmm..not being ammature but seriously..

missing you guys

well i miss you guys really..(from left) shiyin, nurliyana, nurul shafiqah, ratna sari dewi, noriziani and me..i really wonder why we all split up..i miss the times we had together..if i were to blame other people it would be pointless..cause if a true friendship broke up with the cause of other people it just means that we dont fully trust each other like how we said we used to be..i wish we could be as one again..for now..i know that nurliyana is in polythecnic, ratna is working at coffee beans at AMKHub, nurul is still with hanafi, me n noriziani still stayed as bestfriends, but i dont know a thing about shiyin..you guys..if you hear my now..i want to say im sorry about the past.. when we all had our problems we were there for each other..hahakz..i missed it..well..all have moved on..

RATNA:

first im sorry about this years problem but i honestly wasnt walking about you..really..even tho i say you came out that lift..still it wasnt you that i was talking about..im not that disrespectful to my friends..you can say all the things you want to me..but i'll come out clean..yeah i was shock to see you..but i was waiting for another couple to come out that lift..i cant give you the evidence but i have witnesses..again she wore singlet n hotpants n let down her hair..you were definitely wearing sch uniform..and the guy was darker then your boyfriend..but is you want to believe my words against others, its your choice girl..i will not force anyone at all..=]

NURLIYANA:

liyana where did you go!!!why you hilang like that..hey we had no disagreements since pri sch..but i barely see you even tho your hse is opp the sch..i only saw your mom..which is weird actually..she will how im doing and all..and i'll ask how your doing..hahakz..but hey i hope you do well in polythecnic..and hope you go further in your studies..=]

NURUL:

nurul ketot!hahahakz..its your common name in sec sch..you and hanafi is the sweetest couple i've ever seen..honestly i hope you two will last forever..=]..hmm..we arent that close in sec sch but i still like you as a friends..heeh..=]

SHIYIN:

shiyin..heidi..your a good friends..but you get so caught up in your own worlds that sometimes you forget about the rest..hmm..i have no other words to explain us..your most of the times way too rough even with me..tho i dont care rough..you just WAY TOO ROUGH..sorry if im being honest..and you get too bitchy when you hate someone..heh..but by all means your just being you..and i cant stop that..=]

NORIZIANI;

bei, cheh..hhaha..i love you bei!!you were there when i needed someone..you were there when i was at my worst..you were there to nag at me like a big sister..hahahkz..<3..i hope we can last as friends till the end..no secrets remember..i've told you all of mine..=]..and now im just wishing that we wont stray apart when we go to our post sec sch..=[..you like my bestfriend, my sister, my girlfriend..hahahkz..im certain that this made you smile..=]..hee..haish..im just so sad i cant meet you so often like we always did.. now that you have moved house..and different sch..hmm.. still i love you..hahahahkz..wonder how many times i've said it..hahahkz..

okok.. i think im done for now.. toodles to my girlfriends..=]..<3

results time..

result day was terrible..so sian..

..hahakz..well..my darling gf was there for me, she went there to support me even tho we fought like two days ago..hahakz.love her so much..TOlAK tagged along with her that day..=]..(tolak is haidar her bf) huhuhu..

well on the other hand my darling boyfriends for 6mths, BABI, was suppose to by there for me..but he wasnt..i love him so much but we fight almost all the time..we totally like pouring hydrogloric acid onto a rock..its burns but still remains its shape..-.-"

seriously..he never thinks of how i feel..and i shouted on the phone with him infront of my gf..she was absolutely in shock that i behaved that way..hahakz..i wasnt cause i knew that i can explode..and when i did i knew it wouldnt be nice..hah..now she knows..lol..but i was glad she was there for me..even with disagrement i love you..GET THAT GIRL!!!

well now for my results..*drum roll*..i have graduated to ITE..haish..disappointed..not cause of anything but..it was my second try..it was supposed to be better..well it was better..but not enuf apparently..even my mum was dissappointed..well i think i will have to prove myself that i can move up and not down..=]..thats right..positive.hahakz..=P