well..i should say that i really miss him..and im really..empty..haish..
its really boring to suddenly lose the person you really love the most..
i wish i can talk to him right now..
i wish we had never fought that day..
i wish he would have came for me that day..
i wish im not in this situation right now.. really..
haish..im being pressured..
by my dad, by my mum, by my promise to myself, by my promise to my bestfriend..by my promise to D..
noone would ever understand my situation..even if they said they understood..
it sucks..
ALOT!
haish..will i concentrate my course to graduate to poly?
will i find someone better in ite?
will i become astray from my path?
will i break my promises?
i hope i cant cope with it..i really do..
hmm..i guess i will be very busy with school soon..
my course, cca, projects..
i hope D changes..i hope he ask me back with a different attitude..but deep down in my gut..i know that he will still have the same old arrogant douchebag in him..i cry every night thinking about him..well..even if im with him or not..i just have a feeling that he is keeping something from me..something big..haish..i wont say i regret meeting him..and i wont say i regret breaking up with him.
.one thing that everyone around me say..that they are afraid that i will still be the same or worse..hmm..no one has faith in me..and i cant move on if i dont feel the faith..hmm.. hate this..
